Crystal Essex – Miracles in the Waiting: Finding Hope in Infertility

In this emotionally gripping episode, I sit down with Crystal Essex, author of the book “Fruitful,” to discuss her journey of faith and resilience in the face of infertility. For over 15 years, Crystal and her husband have navigated the challenging issue of infertility, seeking answers and understanding where God is in the midst of it all.

Through her pain and despair, Crystal embarked on a study of barren women from the Bible, finding solace in their stories and discovering a profound sense of peace and purpose. Despite the heartbreak of miscarriage, Crystal’s unwavering belief in God’s faithfulness shines through as she shares her story and offers hope and support to others facing similar struggles.

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Mother’s Day 2024

Rodney Mum 1984

(This is a slightly updated post based on my what I have previously written for Mother’s Day.)

I don’t remember anything remarkable about the last Mother’s Day we shared with mum before the illness that consigned her to hospital for the rest of her days, but then we weren’t expecting it to be the last. As far as we knew there’d be many more days to celebrate mum.

Mum’s last couple of years were spent in hospital after suffering a brain aneurysm. For most of that time she was unable to communicate with us. Occasionally she was able to say a word or two but there were other signs that would show us that she knew a lot of what was going on. Mum was pretty much paralysed so even making movement to communicate was difficult.

There were several times that more bleeding in her brain would cause doctors to tell us that mum only had hours or maybe days to live. We would all begin to grieve our loss only to find the days turning into weeks or months until there was another medical setback and the whole process would begin again. You can imagine the kind of emotional toll that took on each of us, not to mention how it would have been for mum who was trapped inside a body that no longer did what it was meant to do.

Rodney Mum 1964When mum finally left this earth I experienced a mixture of relief, sadness and joy. There was relief that she didn’t have to suffer any longer, joy that she was now enjoying paradise but still the immense sadness of losing someone I loved so very, very much.

I’ve seen many more Mother’s Days come and go without a mum than I have with a mother. That doesn’t necessarily mean that it’s a sad day for me but Mother’s Day always brings moments of reflection among the moments of celebrating what an incredibly wonderful mother my own children have and celebrating with Pauline’s mum.

On the 28th of February, 1987, my mother, Margaret Sadie Olsen, passed away at the age of 66. I was just 23 years old when mum died. Mum was 43 when I was born.

It was only last year that Pauline and I got to travel to Scotland to see the home and town she and her family left at the age of just 6 to begin a new life in Australia. There are now so many more questions I would want to ask her and stories I’d like to hear. Even though we only had a day and a half there, I find myself feeling strangely and overwhelmingly connected to Scotland.

There is so much more that I wish she could have shared over the last few decades. Mum wasn’t around to see me cycle across Australia for the first time, just 8 months after she passed away. She never lived to see me realise my childhood dream of working in radio.

By the time I met Pauline, mum had already been gone for close to 5 years. She never got to see her youngest child marry the woman he loves. Mum never got to hold Emily or James in her arms. How I wish she was still here to see our wonderful family. I desperately wish that Emily and James could have met their Grandma Olsen and that Pauline could have spent time with her mother-in-law. I wish that Emily had been able to introduce her husband, Josh, to Grandma Olsen.
Rodney Dad Mum
Mum never heard me tell stories of my trips to places like India, Canada, Indonesia, Papua New Guinea, Thailand, the Philippines or Bangladesh and never had to sit at home and worry when I had to evacuate from Haiti during food riots several years ago.

Although she never got there, mum had an interest in travelling to Africa. I so wish I could tell her about my journey to Ethiopia and Rwanda about ten years ago. She was long gone before I took up the challenge of working for Compassion for 9 years to see children released from poverty around the world.

She never experienced the thrill of seeing Emily and James born and then grow up to perform so well in many areas of life. Mum wasn’t very tall so both Emily and James are taller than she was. They could have playfully leaned on their Grandma just as I used to do when I was younger.

I know that there are many significant events in the lives of my siblings that mum has missed too. There have been highs and lows along the way but all of them would have been quite different if mum had been around to share them.

I know that the person I am today is very much a product of who mum was. I value the influence she was and continues to be in my life.

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William Sofield – The Final Journey

In this week’s episode of Bleeding Daylight, I sit down with hospice chaplain William Sofield to discuss the concept of “dying well” and the importance of spiritual care at the end of life.

William shares insights from his experiences working with patients and their loved ones during some of the most pivotal moments of their lives. From navigating difficult conversations to finding ways to reconnect people with their faith and loved ones, William offers valuable wisdom and practical advice. He shares heartwarming stories of patients finding peace, reconciling relationships, and embracing their final days with grace.

Through our conversation, we explore the complexities of death, the power of forgiveness, and the importance of cherishing moments with loved ones. Whether you’re facing the end of life yourself or supporting someone on their journey, this episode offers profound insights into finding peace and meaning in life’s final chapter.

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Emmanuel Kwizera – Hope Rising: A Survivor’s Story

In this special episode of Bleeding Daylight, I take listeners on a journey back 30 years to a dark period in Rwandan history. I speak with Emmanuel Kwizera, a survivor of the 1994 genocide against the Tutsi in Rwanda. Orphaned at just five years old, Emmanuel shares his harrowing story of loss, resilience, and hope.

Despite enduring unimaginable tragedy, Emmanuel found solace through Compassion International at his local church. Now a partnership facilitator with Compassion, Emmanuel works to support local churches and advocate for children in poverty. Through his inspiring journey, listeners are reminded of the power of forgiveness, the importance of sponsorship, and the transformational impact of Christ’s love. This compelling conversation shines a light on both the darkness of the past and the hope for a brighter future.

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Bambi Lynn – Healing Through Stories

In this episode of Bleeding Daylight, I welcome Bambi Lynn, a woman whose life journey is a powerful testament to the transformative power of faith and resilience. From a tumultuous upbringing marked by abuse and despair, to pivotal moments where she encountered the divine, Bambi’s story is one of redemption and hope. Despite facing unimaginable challenges, including abuse from family members and domestic violence in her marriage, Bambi shares how she found healing and strength through her faith in Jesus Christ.

Through her own journey, Bambi emphasizes the importance of giving permission to women to share their stories of trauma and abuse. She discusses how her website,, provides a platform for women to share their experiences and find support. Despite the ongoing struggles, Bambi’s life today is one of healing, empowerment, and purpose, as she uses her platform to inspire others to find hope in the midst of darkness.

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